Feelings on College...

     I'm leaving for college soon-less than 24 hours to be more specific. I have been asked it seems  bazillion times, "How are you feeling-excited, nervous, scared?" Almost every time my answer is the same, "Yes."
     The main reason I am excited is because I have been waiting for this adventure for a long time. It was never an option, even when I was a child, to not go to college. So for me, I knew it was coming; it was just a matter of time. All growing up I had an infatuation with schooling abroad. I don't know why; I just did. I cannot count the number of times I asked my parents about boarding school, but their answer was always the same. I guess that is part of the reason why I'm excited for college I get to live my fantasy! Only in my dreams did I ever imagine doing this, and now it's coming true! The other reason I'm excited to attend college is because it is change, and change in my life is always welcome. To have my life be stagnant and dull is not my idea of fun. The way I figure it is life is unpredictable; it will change whether you want it to or not. It doesn't need your permission so you might as well learn to love it so that when it does happen you won't freak out.
     Whenever you are excited about something chances are you will also be nervous. For this same reason you rarely have all good and all bad. Since they are usually two sides to every story and pros and cons to every decision I am excited and nervous. I'll admit that my excitement (as of right now) is outweighing my nervousness, but the nerves are still there none the less. I'm just as nervous as every other freshmen starting their first year at a brand new college in a totally different state with basically all strangers, but that's only normal, right?
     I'm scared. I don't like to admit it, along with most other people, but I am. Last night I was kept up by this fact and it was bothering me because I knew I was scared but I couldn't exactly pinpoint the reason I was scared. I still can't but I can try my best to get out as much as I can. I'm scared that I will disappoint my family, mostly my parents. It's not hard to realize that I live the best life imaginable. I have loving parents who care for my every need. They are always there for me and I love them to the moon and back again. They have created the ideal life for me and my siblings, and for this reason I would hate myself if I ever did anything that disappoints them or makes them question my love for them. I am scared that I will not succeed. I fear I expect so much of myself that I will not meet my own demands. My biggest fear I am aware of. They say to come to know your fear because that is the only way you have a chance at beating it. My largest and most frightening scare is that I will change. I know this may sound like I am contradicting my first point but this is different. I welcome external change (change of my surroundings); however when it comes to internal change (change that effects my spirit and attitude and beliefs) this is not appreciated but rather unacceptable. It haunts me even more that almost everyone I have known to leave home for college do not come back the same, and most of the time the change in their life is not for the better. I love myself the way I am, and I know my friends and family love me this way as well. Why then would I want to leave one way and come back a whole new person? I am scared that tomorrow when I leave my house to go to the airport that I won't return as the same person. In fact, even scarier is the realization that it is impossible to remain the same girl that leaves. For one reason or another college will end up changing me. I can only hope it will be for the better.

     So, how do I feel about college? It's hard to say, as of right now I'm just a big jumble of emotions. All I know is that if you believe in God pray for me, and if you don't wish me luck because I'm about go on the biggest adventure of my life so far and I need all the help I can get. :) Thanks bunches! -GreenGirl

Old Stuff, Newly Found...

So, my life has been hectic. I am getting ready to head to college soon and that just adds to my normal crazy busy schedule. I regret to inform you that because of this dilemma I haven't had much time to write much, and what I have written is 1) not finished or 2) not ready for public viewing. Fortunately, I found a folder of some older but not old stuff that I've written on my computer and decided to post something from there. This is my first skit. Last year I had to write a scene of a play for Lit class. It's kinda of funny now that I read through it I laugh at what I wrote and realize how much better I could make it, but even if I only get a couple laughs out of it, it's still worth it. Enjoy!

~GreenGirl

THE NEW GIRL

[Roxanne is the new girl at school. Barbie is showing her around and making her feel welcome, but as the play goes on a secret is uncovered and an argument ensues that could threaten their new found friendship.]

(Coming out of class walking to their lockers)

Barbie: Wow if that wasn’t the most boring class yet. Miss Riley really knows how to ruin my morning, plus I’m pretty sure I failed that pop quiz miserably.

Roxanne: Don’t say that I’m sure you did fine.

Barbie: (flustered) What gives you the right to say that? You don’t know how I did…your guess is as good as mine!

Roxanne: (mumbling to herself) Just trying to be optimistic.

Barbie: You are right. I’m sorry - a little optimism never hurt anyone. I’m just not a morning person. Forgive me?

Roxanne: Done.

(The two girls now stand at their lockers. Barbie has her back against hers waiting while Roxanne digs in hers to get her books out.)

Barbie: (with much excitement) OMG…don’t look up right now but guess who’s walking down the hallway our way.

Roxanne: I don’t know (lifting her head up to see)

Barbie: Don’t you see him the gorgeous guy with the black shaggy hair? (Nodding her head in his direction)

Roxanne: Ya, I see him what about him?

Barbie: Ahhhh…(on the verge of screaming) not only is he drop dead beautiful, with stunning looks, and a good sense of fashion but that is Bo Hartley the schools heartthrob and Mr. Popular seeing as he is on the varsity football team.

Roxanne: Oh…well I uses he’s ok…(not really caring)

Barbie: Okay?!? Are you crazy don’t you see him and me were meant to be. (Barbie says this with a tone of seriousness in her voice) I mean I’m the best looking and most popular girl (Roxanne rolls her eyes) and he’s …well he’s just… you know… I mean… (Stuttering she finally blurts out) he’s Bo Hartley for goodness’ sake!

(While chatting about Bo K.J. shows up to chat.)

K.J.: So ya’ll want to here the juicy piece of information I just got from Stella?

(The other two try to ignore her)

K.J.: It’s really good…

Barbie: K.J., seriously go away we’re too busy to listen to your gossip crap. (She turns back to Roxanne and talks in a shushed voice.)

K.J: (trying again) Well, I know you’ll want to hear what I have to say about Bo (the girls now turn towards her) I mean it is supposed to be exclusively for the newspaper club…

Barbie: Ok, K.J., spit it out. You know as well as I do that since Bo and I are practically an item I deserve to know.

K.J.: Well, (satisfied to now have their attention) all I know is what Stella told me and she said her friend in band told her that some relatives of the Hartley’s have moved to town.

Barbie: Well come on tell me more.

K.J.: Sorry that’s all I have for you but I’ll let you know if anything else comes up.

(Bo laughing with a group of guys pass in front of the girls Bo stops while the guys keep going)

Bo: Hey, your names Roxanne right? (Roxanne just nods her head) Sweet so, how you liking school here at valley view high?

Barbie: (steps in front of Roxanne and answers for her) Hey Bo, Roxanne totally loves it here and I’m the one showing her around.

Bo: Cool so what’s your name?

Barbie: Barbie White, cheer captain. (She says proudly)

Bo: Great well I got to get to the gym but it was nice meeting you Barbie White, cheer captain. Catch you later, Roxanne. (Bo leaves)

K.J.: Dude Roxanne, Bo Hartley knows your name!!! How is that?

Roxanne: I don’t know guess he just wants to be friendly to the newbies.

Barbie: No Roxanne, Bo isn’t just “friendly to the newbies” Now truth: how do you know Bo?

Roxanne: (under her breath) How do you not know your own cousin?

(Barbie and K.J. both gape)

K.J.: Oops just realized I got to go! Bye TTYL!

Barbie: WHAT!!! Your kidding! Bo Hartley is your cousin and you didn’t tell me! Why not?

Roxanne: (with disgust and sarcasm) I wonder, Barbie White, cheer captain.

(The bell rings and the girls scurry to class in opposite directions.)

THE END!!!