Wednesday, April 27, 2016

Late Night Confessions

I fall easy.
I fall fast.
I fall hard.
I have a hard time hiding my true feelings.
In fact, it's damn near impossible.
But don't ever think that what I say isn't 100.
Don't ever assume that I'm just talking fluff.
If I say something, I mean it.

Writing is my child made through love.
Talking is it's half sibling.
Similar in aspects,
Definitely related
But artistically they're each uniquely their own

Some people think my words are cheap.
No.
They're priceless.
If I compliment you,
It's from the part of my soul, black as the ocean.
If I say, "I can't live without you."
It's because I don't want to.
If I say, "I love you."
It means you're apart of the reason I wake up with a smile on my face very day.
And if I say, "I'm here for you."
It means call me, text me, wake me up, disrupt my thoughts, bother me night or day because
I. Do. care.

I want to be there for you.
I don't want you to ever doubt.

I want to be in front of you
For when you're afraid to step out.
I want to have your back
For when you fall.
I want to be by your side
For when you need a hand to hold.
I want to surround you with my love.

Because I know when someone has my back
When someone's in my corner cheering me on, urging me to get back up and fight
That's when I feel like I can take on the world.

I know I love too easy.
I know I smile too much.
I know I have trouble saying no,
And that it's difficult for me to get angry and remain mad,
But I acknowledge my imperfections.

And so help me,
If these are my burns to bear,
If these are my life's greatest struggles,
I shall count my blessings.
Living life proud to be me-
Chin held high, shoulders back and ready to move forward.
God created me this ways for a reason,
And I plan on living a long, healthy life before I meet Him to ask why.