My Legacy

     In my "Bible" reading today I came across a very interesting thought. What do you want to be remembered for? What do you want people to say at your funeral? What will your great accomplishments be when you die? Who do you want to remember you as having an impact on their life?

     We are all going to die. It only takes one second, one rash decision, one mistaken step and then our lives could be over. Let's just say for the sake of this blog post that my date to die is December in the year 2025. That would be the month after my 30th birthday. If I die at age 30 first of all I do not want a funeral; I want a memorial service. There's just something about the word funeral that just creeps people out and sounds too depressing. Death is inevitable, but how we see it is our choice. To me, death is another adventure so to speak. We live; we die. It's only natural, so when I die I wish to have a memorial service for people to remember me and be happy for the life I lived not grieve for me and think of the life I could have lived.

     I want to be remembered as a happy girl. A girl that always had a smile on her face and song in her heart. One that knew what she wanted and worked hard to get it. I want people to remember that I lived my life to the fullest no matter how long my life ends up to be. I want to be remembered as a giving person-one who only wanted the best for those loved ones in my life. I want them to know I cared about them and I do not want them to wonder if I loved them. I want people to remember my hugs and my words of encouragement, and most of all I want people to know that when I die I am going to heaven and I want all my friends and family to know that I was saved by grace and they can be to.

     I plan to have many great accomplishments done by the time I die. I decided a little while ago that no time is "too soon" to have started a bucket list. That list is already chalk full of things to do before I die. Some are little things that will have minor impact on my life if only to say, "I DID IT!" Other items on that list, however are accomplishments that I wish to be remembered for such as: writing a novel, getting an article about my work published in a newspaper/magazine, and to own my own business. I want kids to be able to see my name and say, "Hey, I have one of her books, it's awesome!" or "Dude, I read one of her books once and I couldn't put it down; she's my favorite author now!" My greatest accomplishment when I die will (hopefully) be that I am a successful freelance writer. I hope my life impacts others for the better. I mean what a waste if you live say 30 years and never touch one soul. I take back what I said before. Changing someones life is by far the greatest accomplishment I could hope to do in my lifetime, but why should I only stop at one? I still want to be a successful freelance writer, but I want my writing to be a help to someone. What is the point of having many best selling novels if none of them really impact anybody's life?

     I want to impact the next generation, especially, because they have the power to change the future, actually, they are the future, and by impacting them I impact the future. I want my family to remember me as having an impact on their life. I don't want people to say when I die, "Who are you talking about?" I want to have a legacy; I want to be remembered even after I am long gone as the girl who never quit, who never gave up on those she loved, one who did not under any circumstances conform to the cookie cutter shapes of those around her. Yes, I will be different. Yes, I will stand out. But I will not die without leaving my hand print on your heart and my stamp of individuality on this earth.

Yours Until I die,
GreeenGirl

My Safe Harbor

     I am standing as still as stone. I open my eyes, and see that I am in a grove of redwoods. From the look of things they are like a labyrinth. They are circled around me and bent towards me as I stand motionless as if I am the statue. The towering redwoods come together above my head, and block out most but not all the sunlight. It is cool and damp with just enough sunlight streaming through the trees for me to see where I want to go. I cautiously take a step forward and take in my surroundings.  I am all alone except for the nature sounds. It is the perfect kind of quiet not too quiet that I miss the calls of the birds yet not too loud that I miss the sound of my footsteps snapping twigs as I move forward. As I make my way out of the maze of trees my surroundings slowly evolve until I have come to a new scene entirely. The sounds of the birds are still there but are now different and I realize they are soft calls of seagulls as if in a distant land. The air around me changes to misty coolness and fog is wrapped around my ankles. The ground is no longer that of a forest but now it is thick lush grass. Suddenly without warning I am at the edge of a cliff and down below is the far away land that I heard. I observe seagulls flying high above the crashing waves and white foam. I turn around to step away from the cliff and behind me is a bench that has somehow appeared. It looks as if it has been there forever. It is wooden with rusty metal arms. Growing up the sides and back are wildflowers of all colors and as I inch closer I see it has a plaque with my initials engraved on it. I sit there facing the sea. Balanced between the calm and the crazy. This is my safe harbor, my happy place, the place where even on the worst day I can be content.
-GreenGirl

My New Journey

     These next few months (or however long it takes) I will be traveling on a journey. Each day I plan to read my "Bible" not my KJV, giant print, red letter edition, Bible but my copy of The Freelance Writer's Bible by David Trottier. I am not putting a time length on how long it will take me to finish this book because I do not want it to be a speed read. I would rather take my time and really learn from this journey. I have just recently started it and already I have learned so much!
     Anyways, throughout this book are many writing exercises that the author puts in to test your writing ability and to stretch you to limits you thought impossible. I will be sharing mine on this blog. I know that it may not mean as much to you (readers) as it does to me, but just knowing that there are people who see it will hopefully hold me to a higher standard and make me take it as seriously as possible. Thank you for reading, and good night!
    ~GreenGirl

To my Sister on the Morn that She Left

Sister, only when you return will I be forever let out of my bubble of grief, depression, and despair. I love you always and forever. Never forget that. xoxoxo

You had barely gone out the door;
You had taken my heart and so much more.

I thought we'd always be together.
We have something no one can sever.

Today I am in mourning since you left.
The way you stole my soul was so deft.

I miss you so much I can't describe,
Without you I'm but a one man tribe.

In my heart you will always reside.
You are my joy, my soul mate, my pride.

Know that at night I will be playing our song,
And I'll love you more than"the one who does no wrong".


 <3 GreenGirl

Crossing the Facebook Frontier

     Well, folks, it's done....I just stepped over the thin line separating me from all those Facebook fanatics. Yikes! To be honest with you when I first pushed the button I was like, What have I done??? Because it was so scary and huge looking, then I had an epiphany. The world is big, right? So, I have always been a little fish in a big pond now I just multiplied it by like a bazillion so I have become a little fish in a huge ocean. Big whoop-de-doo!

     I never thought this day would come to be. I guess it's kind of because I spend so much of my time trying to prove to everybody that I am nothing like everybody else that when there is something that everyone else is doing I try to avoid it, even if it something I would absolutely love. I feel it will make them realize that oh wow she really is different.

     So yes, I compromised. I am now on Facebook, but I wish not to be grouped with them all the time. I am a person that may use Facebook, but I am not a "Facebook-er" (if that's even a word). :-] I believe I can have a Facebook account and still be an individual and hopefully it will help me to accomplish my goal. Which I will have to save for another time and place...

Laters,
Green Girl

P.S.
I would have to get a Facebook page eventually you know when I become a famous author of so many best sellers so I just look at it as putting off the inevitable...lol

Summer Poetry

It's hot; it's cold. It seems the weather can't make up it's mind. Either way, nature is beautiful and since I get to get out more I am getting some serious inspirational poetry writing time. Yes! So enjoy the poem and be on the look out there is much more to come. -Green Girl

THE CALI COLLISION
By: Green Girl

Summertime in this heat
The kids in the pool have made a fleet.
All the chicks layout getting a tan,
While they watch the shirtless guy as he ran.
When you go to beach for some splendor
You get a mix of race, size, and gender.
Athletes, models, and a family,
Tourists for sure, and actors-maybe-
It's a mix of almost everything
Most of it's normal though we got some bling.
It's either really awesome or really not
You either like it a little or like it a lot.
In California its average and above
But I don't care cause it's what I love.

My High School Graduation!

     Yesterday was the big day--no gigantic day!!! Probably one of the greatest moments of my life is yesterday all wrapped up in a big package. I loved everything about it! Whether it was my whole outfit (new dress and shoes included) coming together, or my march down the aisle, or the talking to everyone after and giving a bazillion hugs, or even getting a peanut butter cup milkshake at Black Bear Diner afterwards--the truth is that I cannot point to one thing in particular and say that that one thing was the best thing that made the whole night special. It was just a combination of everything.

     I do want to thank my family and friends that traveled from out of town to attend the ceremony. I appreciate it, and I love you guys!!!

     Now, the question you all have been asking. "How did the speech go?" Well, it went FANTASTIC!!! At least I think it did. . . everyone was telling me it was awesome but the whole time they are saying that I'm just thinking my head. "Gee thanks! That's really kind of  you to say even though you are probably just lying through your teeth!!!" No, but I think the thing that really matters is 1) I feel really good about it and I know I did my best 2) I didn't cry up on the platform and 3) the crowd laughed and chuckled at the appropriate times. I would love to go on talking and talking about this day for many more pages but the fact is that I had a long day at work today, and I just played some hardcore walleyball (volleyball in a racquetball court) with my siblings so I must hit the hay. :)

     Before I hit that hay however I would like to share with you the same quote I ended my speech with for those who were not there to hear it. Enjoy!

  "Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do." -Apple Inc.

     Good Night! ~Green Girl