Tuesday, May 31, 2016

My Summer, God's Plan

It feel weird only posting this now and knowing I wrote it Sunday night, but I was having trouble logging into the wifi. No worries! I have figured it out, and hopefully I can now regularly update you all on my summer adventures! I am in California working as a media intern as a christian camp. I was nervous and scared to come here, not knowing what I was doing really. It wasn't how I pictured my big return to my home state, but better this than never returning at all, right? :) Anywho, the following thoughts are from two days ago . . .

"It’s only been two days, but already I know this is where I’m supposed to be. No, I haven’t gotten into the nitty-gritty, and no, no campers have arrived yet, but it’s clear this is where God has me for the summer.



Tonight we had a meeting, a church service of sorts for the staff in one of the camp halls. The pastor who came to speak to us, gave a great challenge about working in the ministry. I know it’s not easy. I know it will be a long and tiring two months, but I also know I will make it through alive.

Since I arrived here at Wolf Mountain, I’ve loved it. Growing up when we would go as a church group up to camp, I always enjoyed it. The idea of being away from the city, being surrounded by trees and nature and just being able to relax was such a blessing. Here I get a same feeling of sorts. I love nature and being able to sense God through it. Looking at the sky and acknowledging the fact that God made this all. We are but a minute part of His whole creation.

Yes, this summer I chose to leave my parents and my sisters behind for two months. Yes, I chose to gain little money for my work. But, as I learned my senior year at camp, “The happiest place on earth is in the center of God’s will.” And I don’t know where God’s will, will lead me in the future, but for this summer, for the next two months, God’s will for me is to serve as a media intern for Wolf Mountain, and I’m super excited to see what He has in store.

Prayers are appreciated as I continue in this adventure!

TTYS!

Sunday, May 15, 2016

Do-over

Because sometimes when we want something in the heat of a moment, we don't realize what we're really saying. Then when we get it, we regret it though we weren't necessarily mistaken. To move on or not to move on . . . there may not be a right or wrong, but to stay in the middle zone and always flip-flop back and forth is doing even more harm. Once you have decided one way on the matter just go for it and go back for a re-do because then you'll just be hurting yourself again.


DO-OVER

I'm missing you like crazy,
Nothing that was still remains.
I left. But I did say goodbye!
I've got no one else to blame.

I thought it would be better,
Easier without you here.
Now I realize I'm bitter.
I'm the enemy I feared.

The emptiness is a knife.
Each thought of you stabs my heart.
Maybe if I get you back . . .
Could we perhaps push restart?