Yes, I know what you guys are all thinking. What's wrong? Has GreenGirl died? Why hasn't she posted anything in forever? Answers I have, if you but read on. In short I have been struggling with finding my voice. Before I came to college I knew exactly who I was, what I intended to become, and what I was doing in life. Then it all became unclear and foggy; suddenly I knew no answers.
I think it's because when you move away from home to college you are in a whole new atmosphere and start a new life. Basically everything has changed. So when you see something in your life that has not changed you get uneasy and question yourself. Thinking, "Is that right?" "Why it that the same while all else is evolving?" When in reality my writing (which was the part of my life that was not changing) wasn't supposed to change. Because my writing is the very core of me. It is who I am-soul and spirit combined.
While all other changes can be perceived as natural transformations of me growing up, if my writing were to change drastically that would mean who I am now is not the same as who I thought I was before. I realize now that though time and circumstances can change who I am on the outside and even who I am thought to be on the inside. Way down deep in the very depths of my soul is someone who cannot and will not ever be changed. This is who I truly am. This is my inner writer.
With apology's and more writing to come soon,
GreenGirl
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